Updated: Aug 19, 2019
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Pain is something we all experience at one point or another in our lives. Some experience it from their earliest memory. But all of us experience it at some point.
The difference in how we handle that pain, I think, defines who we are. If we experienced pain having to do with sex from an early age, then our interactions with sex will be fundamentally altered for the rest of our existence. But a certain individual decides to understand this alternation to their existence, and decided to transcend it; to experience sex as if they aren’t afraid or hypersensitive to a particular experience, person or emotion.
Living with a lot of pain, from whatever the source, takes a toll on you as a person. It wraps your reality. You see everything through the lense of that pain. Because of this we misread, misjudge and have misperceptions.
Moving to New York lifted a lot of pain off of my shoulders. But living here as an artist has put a whole new weight on top of those shoulders. An artist has the responsibility to illicit emotional reactions from an audience. And I can’t do that if I’m hurting. From a breakup, conflict, stresses, whatever the source. I like being connected to the world, and moving here helped me with that. I meditate often, I see it as my most useful tool (not drinking or using drugs) in dealing with that pain. I found the other things like booze or drugs just prolong that pain, or create new pain.